Out of Many, There is None

Just had a thought,
A simple thought,
Of what we call now
"Majority"
Is it really that numbers counts?
Or is it the ideas that matters?
And it is the willingness that worked!

Do "Minority" really means small?
Is it true that being small, you have no voice?
How if this "Minority" stood up together,
Cooperates in Unity
They sure can beat up the "Majority"

As in story of David,
Who was a little boy
But managed to kill
The giant Goliath.....

And another tales
Of a small country called "Israel"
Surrounded by enemies in all corner
But they managed to survived and flourished,
Amidst the threat of attacks,
Surely is impressive.

Is that enough to show you
That old doesn't mean you're wise
Small didn't deter your talent.
And who say lesser could connotes to losing?
By determination and unity, everything is now possible.

Bizarre

Surprise, Shock, Curious, Ashamed, Stunned
By what a person would do
In order to gain what she wants
To be able to stand good in the eyes of many
When you know you don't deserve it,
I called it a Daring Act
Bravery of no match
But if one day, you shall fall
You will fall harder in front of everyone.

Observed by her own needs, by her own interests
What actually do you seek?
Fame, Money, Status
While you're selling out your DIGNITY!
Don't you have the courage to point
The blame upon my face
Because it's you, not I
Who done the damages!
Think for awhile, where you stands
I'm alone, I know
But you're in the crowd
However you know that these "many"
Is only a plain surface of faces
That tries to win a priceless aspect

If I were you, I'll be more careful
Cause who should know
That one awful day shall arrived
That one of them shall betray you,
And left you barren, empty and NOTHING!

Sorry Out of Pity

Tumbling and juggling through life,
I've seen many things but it's not enough.
At young age, maybe it's sufficient
While growing up, it's not what you thinking!
Way off the main roads of your plan,
You stumble with foes
And you cross-road with friends
Ultimately meet the one that you loved.
However,
Such tales are easy to be told
But hard to be played.....

Out there, yes.... Out of the real world,
Anything can happens.
Look up ahead and be careful,
You might have that one day,
The next morning you will lose it.
Precaution is always your best guard,
But self-doubt is always there
In your heart,
Will it do anything for you
Or just as an useless self-portrayal
Of PITY.....................

When The Wild Is No More

Used to wonder around the wild,
To see and touch the astonishing life,
That may lived and lurked there.
Feeling lost in the serenity milieu
Captured by the gaze of nature,
Lately the amity of crossing came in less satisfying
For long as now, hardly see anything
In the forsaken forest of the living
Hurt to feel no more existence
The mighty tiger that once roamed the floor of the forest
As the king of all others,
To witness the glorious run of deer across the bushes
Picturing
The size of a jungle buffalo
The shyness of pangolin
The length of python
The sound of magpies
Sorrow filled the fouled heart.
Pity, there is no more chance.

HORRIFYING THAN DEATH ITSELF

Have you ever wonder about the starry night
Where you could be, at one time
See thousands of sparkling diamonds of the heavenly atmosphere
But also in one moment, all that you can see
Is just a dimness hour with no ambiance
Agitated with zero gravity
That will left you alone
In the bottemless pit of despondency.

Hope, then was just a myth
Written by a bunch of folly-no-good people
Who just trying to spend their free time
In giving falsity of life,
Imprudence is the core of despair
That has the deepest root in our life.

Lies has not be the greatest factor
In the misery of mankind
It is the arrogant feeling
That survived through the years to be
Conceited, driven by ambitious surge and
Thrilled by the waves of the rich and famous
Sadly, deprived from the very feeling of a human
LOVE

Give up the ghost of your own disproportion
So be it to you to give in or give up
For what I know,
This is more horrifying than death itself.

LITTLE

Facing the odds, is a little girl
Whining against her father's coat,
Her tears fall down, marking the earth
Crying over and over again
Making others stop and stare
Just as such manner to be seen,
She just cry even louder.
With so little to think,
She stump her feet.
The dry soil splashed, as dusty wind grows,
Her father is mad, "Why can't you just hold?"
She still did not understand,
Her grumpy face wouldn't,
She run away, to the nearing bush.
"Stop!", her father said,
With commanding words, out of beat
She did not care, less would she be.
Running away with endless carefree
Go ahead, my little child.

Run, run and never turn back.
Just go away, never to be found.
So I and your father
Can live happily
Without you around......

She is sad, she is angry
Why he should marry this LADY?
I only want my Mummy, My MUMMY alone,
She is nothing, elusive in her own,
Doesn't he notice the way she speak,
The way she sit, the way she eat,
The way she move?
It's all fake, a tiresome attempt
Try to seduce him.

And she succeed.
For now I'm alone, just a little girl
Father's love has lost from me,
What I could hope and pray now,
Is that my Mother's love will forever be
The same.

BEING ME

Watching the sun rise every morning,
Duly waking upright
With a moaning sigh.
As the birds are flying high over the sky,
Oh, pity! Oh, so sad!
Lying down on the couch, waiting
And waiting............
For someone to just burst in
Drag me out of this sickening hour
Disgust of myself, WHY
WHY?
Don't you had the pleasure to just waste
And get wasted.
Just doing what I were born with.

Gloom, dark road ahead of me.
Should I dare myself to just
Walk, not looking back?
Or instead choose a brighter path
Radiant light of the bright sun,
Wait, oh Wait!
If life could be that easy,
There will be no sorrow, no misery.
No, I can't, If what is left
Is only the road I see in front!
Can't wait to see your face next to me,
When you're in the same
Melancholy.

THANK YOU..........

Big-Headed Parade Idols
Walk down the Red Carpet of Fame
And by this, they continue to walk, walk
And walk again,
And again until infinite......

Shrouded by their own dim-witted
And imprudent ways of living
In this masqueraded world
Falling off the reality
Usurper of dreamers
Boisterous speeches are frequently
Aired for the people to hear
But not to feel
Not to see
In the depth of your filthiness
You deceive......

At this instant, a moment of urgency
Their spirits fly away
Away from their cowardliness
Frighten by their own insecurity
And in this hour of imminence
They choose to run
Scattered from their most
Praised Ideas
Ideas of emptiness

What left behind then
Is Me
Alone
Waiting
For the wrath of the years to come
To fall in
And tortured me for the rest of my life.................

Thank You
For The Show
Anyway
It Turns, I Still There.

BETWEEN ME AND YOU

You, you are beautiful,
Not an inch of doubt about it,
You, you are the best thing
That ever went in my life,
And you, I love you
So much even I could not believe
That it is true,
The thought that I loving you is
True...............

Me, it is me
Who are not able to
Do everything yet anything
To be there with you,
And I, I maybe at a switch of enrapture,
Stirred up emotions and gambling with mind,
Just now is not the right time,
The need is only centered around
What they called 'Duty'

I, I not the person who
Would had the chance
Nor can I easily change,
All of those tell, spread is
True,
But just not in a perfect view.

You, I and everyone
Sat Still in the gleams of what
Yet to come.

Despair not, for this goodbye........
For You, I'm not
For I, You're not
Remember this and forever do,
I'm Loving You.

TUTELAGE

Unborn child hears mother's humming,
Praying for the baby's safety and well-being,
From there the living soul starts learning.

The boy riding a bicycle, pedaling hard
To move the round wheels across the tarred plane.
His father has uncountably in time encourages him
To be brave and embrace it
A sign of confidante
A need of support.
There he learn.

Dolls filled a wonderful room
Plastered with decoration of girlish styles.
Flowers of all kind glued to the walls
Creating a secret garden for her alone.
She was told to be graceful, to respect people
To walk slowly with little attraction
As a stature of nobility
Of a maiden to be,
There she learn.

Walking past the boulevard was a man,
Of his height shadow,
Plucking the scent of the morning mist.
His hard hands clung deeply to his briefcase,
Looking back at the shinning sun
Before continuing his journey back
To his workplace.

A lady, dressed in bluish gown
Planted seeds of flowers
Brewing the rich soil to breed
New colors to the Earth.

Every now and then,
We'll be finding special things,
To be with in,
And through this ,
We are learning.

SAVAGE

Tik Tok, Tik Tok, Tik Tok
The clock is ticking
As the hour turns late
An owl make a howl
Horrifically haunted to
The ears of its sound.

The wather is not
So bright tonight
The windy cumulonimbus
Brought plight to the time.

Suddenly,
The lights of the illumination
Gutters.

A shake of fear presence now
In the little heart of a boy.
He sleep still
As he is frozen by the dread
Of the tempest
Raged at its own will.

The rapid rain crashed
The tiles roof
Creating a terrible noise
Dashing through his eardrums
Grazing his breath from lungs.

The howling scream of the wind
Battered his heart beats
To only pumps harder
And faster
With growing agony
Of his own imagination.

FORGIVE ME

Tears upon tears,
I felt sorrow to look upon myself
In the old mirror
Dusty with all debris that collected
And swayed by the wind.

Sadness after sadness,
Strive to make a living inside of
Me
But I shallowly resist,
For I know I am indebted to
For I know I also
Cause it to happen.

Numbers came off repeatedly,
As I want to call all of my dear
Friend,
But time did not allowed it
As the printed values mark jealousy
In my pocket.
Perish, old me!
For you are no good
To begin with.
Also not the last one
To lost hope on.

Dear, oh my Dear
Forgive me
For what an inequity I have
Done.
And please, friends
Lead me
Not leave me
If you are truly
a friend.

UNWISE

Turbulence rushing in like flood
Crashing down all my defense
My shield, My wall
Eventually
Swipe me off my own sanity.

I am now not who I am was.
I am now is weak.
Tired of the difficulties I have
To endures everyday of my.
My body is currently
Swelling of untruthfulness that
My soul creates,
As to keep me distant from reality.

My head aches, like it never
Stop been punctured by thousands of
Sharp needles.
Little do I care for living who
I was.
I am concern on how
To survive this.

Alone, in the dark of the night
Silent in prayer
Do I whisper
Forgive me, O my God
For I did not know.

And in solitude, do I hope
And wish
To find the answer.

Special

Maybe not here
Or there
You felt
Like I'm taking you
For granted
But truly I care
It just maybe
I didn't like
To speak of it

Just to be
You and Me.
With the graft
on the event
Increasing
I believe
You are the
One.

My Love, My Everything,
My Life and Soul,
We were meant
Together.
Forever.

Like a bird flying high
Together
We fly across the sky
Ventures to new places
With you
I search for
My Destiny.

Like the never ending stories
Of Passionate Lovers
That I hope
Of both of us
Patient, My Sweetheart
Our Love shall be
Proven
In Time.

Specially for a woman that have steal my heart: Shina Animan

If I'm Not Here Anymore by Hazim Shah

Do you ever think
If I 'm not here anymore
If this sleep is forever
If this step take me further
But
Do you ever think about me?

If I'm not here anymore
Would it be the same?
Is there any difference
I know
My absent will not make you cry
Nor sad.

I'm just a man
A man that always not there for you
I'm just a friend
Who you think never care
I'm just a brother
That Mom said never understand.

I hope
If I'm not here anymore
You will see
How much I care
You will realise
How much I understand
You will know
That I'm the man who always there
For you.

If that time comes
I leave and go
Go to my new world
And struggle in
My second journey.

I really want
To spend more time with you
But it is fate
If I'm not here anymore.

Specially composed by my best friend, BOBO.

Apparently

Maybe not today
Will you go astray
And perhaps not tomorrow
Can you seek death
Neither a chance of fate
Twisted around
Circling down
Upon you
Or fortunately in the future
Someday ahead
You get what you want
Truly, Frankly, Honestly
I care for none.

Imagine being
Hang upside down
Wailing for help
But no one there
Just you yourself
Just YOU.

Over The View

The indigenous me,
Forward the message
As simple and clear
A universal core value
That
I am whom I am
Thanks
For loving and caring for me
Of who I am.

Lucky indeed
Whosoever
That shall have
The right to
Kiss your forehead
And to put at
Your finger
The ring of commitment.

Sadly
It would not be me!
Because I am not worthy
For it
For you deserve
A person
Other than me
Silently I know
You agree.

A Music of Its Own

The Moon was hanging still
In the clear face of the sky.
Like an actress
Stood in front
Fill with the amused gaze
Of everyone.

It is a peace night,
Unlike the other nights,
Solemnly sound.

The breeze feel so friendly,
Not like yesterday's
Cold-breaking wind.
The free breath of
The Atmosphere,
Lift up motion of the dearly creature.

Unliving things,
Had a wondrous tale to be told.

The trees are dancing
In a calm melody,
While the grasses are
Playing a silent orchestra,
Unlikely.
Where the tune of the night
Create astonishing figures.
To accompanied me
During the slumber day.

Oh, Dear
What a late night
Dream I had,
Full of
Incredulous image.
But beyond this,
I know it is
Just a hope
Of Mine.

None Of That I've Seen

Like the dew of morning,
I fell replenish with all my strenghth,
Gathering the very life,
In me.
Thus making,
The current turmoil
Take me no heed.

The hours of the past
Seem to be far away
Yet it teaches me
The courage of today.
Verily, I realize
That no matter
How you view the world,
It's changing
And it is leaving you behind.

Unlike the trapped time,
In the sand bottle,
That keep the fresh memory
Of a picnic,
Once upon a time.

Or the collection of
stamps that filled
Your scrapbook,
Remind you of the
Younger You.

Maybe of the first love
You had,
They said it will
Be the most
Unforgotten memory.

Still in the Mid Air
of the growing sky
I wander if it is true,
That memory
Will always
Stay with you.

Divergence

I looked up into the sky,
Through the direct translucent window,
In front of me.
The heaven is bluish today.
The mundane smell of morning
Woke me earlier.
As I drew away
My dizziness and tiring personages,
I like to stare against the road
Opposite to the house
And I like the sound of life
To fill my ears and
Remind me of myself.

It is a pleasant sleep that
I had like never before slept,
But sadness suddenly fill
My deepest concern.

As I watch more and more,
This motion lies beneath
Is just a serene picture
Played across these screen called
Reality.

Silence stood a point
Inside my head
Drawing a circle
Of iniquity
Of its own.

Creep into the intensity
Of this rough playground
I must have dream a better
Piece of hope
I shared.......

Wonder of the Time

When you stray away
from me,
And forge a new allegience
against me,
Waging a war.
Cold and Arrogant.

Do you ever trying to understand
what do I feel
of what or whom I am?
Even for a second
Now and then,
We'll find ourselves
in the most strangest circumstances
Where friends turns to foes,
When mortal enemy become a helpful sidekick

What a wonderful world
We are actually in!!!!
And you're actually out......

I'm Sorry

I'm sorry for
Hurting you
For everything
That you owe to me
And I hurt myself
By believing you.

You say that
You will be there for me
But you never do
You told me
How grateful you are
To knowing me
Although it's different
From the way you act
Disgust of me.

I'm sorry for
Letting you into
My life
It was good before
But now it's just an empty
Feeling
I feel inside.

Thank you
For all those thing
You did for me
For truth or falacies
You, only you know it.

Frank to myself,
I wish for the best.

YOU

Must I be someone else
If I want to be friend
With you?

Shall I transform myself
To a thing you would prefer
An image of your own pompous
Rotten in your conceited feelings.

Just to be with you
In your little world of high and mighty.

I know
You just regard me
As one of yours
Inferior.

Not to be in title
To even walk
With you.

That's me
In those arrogant eyes
Of yours.

Fear not,
Dear friend.
For neither hate,
Or anger
Emerged from
Deep within me.

But pity,
For you are actually
Alone,
In your own world
Of pride.

And you
Shall die alone
In your realm
Of Despair.

CURIOSITY

Sometimes,
When I'm alone,
I wander.

Why do things feel
Like it's out of control,
Whereby you know
You do it right,

But it seem
Like it's not,
Your time to
Pluck the reward,
Yet.

But even more
Distressing
When someone else,
Someone you know,
And everyone know
Of not capable,

To achieve it,
To taste it,
To even touch it,
Is the one who get it.

Is this FAIR?
Tell me,
IS THIS FAIR?

I know you'll just say
That it's the real world,
Not all of our dream,
Our needs and wants
Can be fulfilled.

But will it justified
When you work so hard for it,
Other get it so easily.

Without any sweat.
Without any effort.

Sonnet II

Identical cannot
Be concluded
As the same.

Parallel does not
Constitute straight.

Loud do not
Mean that
There are many.

Big will not
Said that
You are strong.

Tears do not
Make you weak.

Sonnet I

To be or not to be,
You, who shall decide.
Not me,
Nor her,
Neither will them,
And would not be him.

Master of yourself,
Is indeed you.

EMPTY

I pity myself for
being so naive,
To believe that
friendship are forever,
Person that I can share my laughter,
to listen to my tears,
to be with me during good and bad hours,
Coming to pass.

But no,
Nothing lasted forever.
They could be nice, warm to you
at one moment,
Then turned to
Strangers, cold toward you.

Human,
Fragile.
Trust is no longer a proud.
For you all are just a selfish,
Heartless being.

Empty.

FROZEN

You only see
What your eyes want to see,
How can life be
What you want it to be,
You're frozen
when your heart not open.

You're consumed by
How much you'll get,
You waste your time
With hate and regret,
You're broken
When your heart not open.

Don't put me
On the blame
You know I suffer the same,
If I lost you,
My heart will be broken.

Love is a bird,
She needs to fly,
Let all the hurt
Inside of you
Die.
You're frozen
When your heart's not open

If I could melt your heart,
We would never be apart,
Give yourself to me,
You hold the Key.